Kecewakah aku??

Hmm...today is the last day of my final exam for this semester. I finished my last paper with tawakkal to Allah..I hope my result for this semester will not be so bad...finished story about my exam.

Today my little bro n sis got their UPSR result...Alhamdulillah...Aizuddin n Fasha got 5A's and Megat got 4A's. others i do not know because they do not contact me. I always pray the best for them..

Late this afternoon, I was called to clear something that play2 around in my heart n mind about these few days..Alhamdulillah...everything has settled!I do not want to comment about that. What I want to share is about my feeling rite now.

After I know the truth, I thought I would cry..but my tears did not come out. I persuaded my heart, this is a test from Allah for me...I remembered that Allah loves me, thats why He gives me this test. He wants to know how though I am in facing this challenge.

...Wa’asa an takrahu syai’an wa hua khoirul lakum, wa’asa an tuhibbu syai’an wa hua sharrul lakum, wallahu ya’lamu wa antum la ta’lamun (2:216)

Meaning:

...though it is hateful unto you; but it may happen that ye hate a thing which is good for you, and it may happen that ye love a thing which is bad for you. Allah knoweth, ye know not. (2:216)

...Barangkali kamu benci akan sesuatu yang berlaku ke atas kamu padahal perkara itu adalah baik bagi kamu, dan barangkali kamu suka akan sesuatu padahal perakara itu sebenarnya buruk bagi kamu. Allah jua la yang mengetahui semuanya yang kamu x ketahui. (2:216)

This verse give me a lot of strength.yeah...though I hate this thing happen to me, but I have to be positive...this maybe the right thing for me. Only Allah knows what is the best for me. so, redha laaa...There's nothing to be done except praying to Allah to give me strength and always me love forever.

I remembered what my naqibah had said before, when Iman is in the heart, that person will be strong. When he faced a problem, he will back to his Khaliq, Allah Rabbulizzati..Allahuakbar!!How deep is Allah's love...but why do people still wanna find human's love..Allah will always love us eventhough we forgot Him, but mankinds???Human's love always fade with time.. So, why r u hurting urself with human's love.

Dear readers...

The things that happened to me today is very hurtful.It might kill half of my spirit actually. All plans that I had, are gonna be change!Yes..Human planned, Allah also planned, but Allah's plan is the the best planning..We always forget about that. We forget that we never know what will happen next in the episodes of our life.But Allah do know everything about us till deep bottom in our heart.Subhanallah...

...Wahai jiwa yang tenang, kembalilah kepada Tuhanmu dengan keadaan engkau berpuas hati lagi diredhai. serta masuklah dalam kumpulan hamba-hambaKu yang berbahagia. Dan masuklah ke dalam syurgaKu! (90:27-30)

Wahai hatiku...redhalah dengan takdir dari Tuhanmu...Tuhanmu yang memilikimu..Beribadahlah kamu kepadaNya..seolah-olah kamu kan mati esok..

Ya Allah...kuatkn semangatku..walau berat sekali dugaan yang Kau berikan..istiqamah la aku dgn ibadahku.mungkin ade dosa yg jd penghalang...Ampunkan aku atas keterlanjuran perbuatanku di dunia ini..





Nukilan rasa : Zaidatul Akmal;9.32 p.m. KK3,UMP
Mood : Redha dan sabar